If you read my other posts, you already know that I suffer from anxiety and depression. On top of this, my partner of four years broke up with me, so I moved in with my Mum and brother.
I really hit rock bottom, so bad that I couldn’t face leaving the house. I got signed off work for three weeks and started medication. That was six weeks ago.
I have now been back at work for four weeks. I won’t lie, I’m not 100% back to being me yet, but I am getting there. Some days I feel anxious again or I find myself missing my ex. While other days I feel the old me returning, the calm and happy me I know.
But recovery takes time. I can’t expect to take a pill and bam, I’m back to normal. The same applies to a breakup, I can’t expect to be over him at the click of a finger.
So if you are going through a breakup, don’t worry if you find yourself missing him/her again. Even if he wasn’t the right for you. Even if you were feeling ok, but then find yourself missing him/her again.
If you are going through anxiety or depression, just know it’s ok to have bad days. You might have started medication or therapy and been feeling better, but now you feel like you’re back at square one.
It’s ok, because you are getting better. You may not see it now, but you are getting stronger everyday. Each day you’re a step closer to recovery. Each day your heart and mind heals. Soon enough, you will be back to normal and you will laugh and love again.
So be patient with yourself. I know you may feel like you want to be healed now, but it does take time and that’s ok. It will all be worth it in the end. I know that you will get there.